#14

You are one of the best person I ever had, I ever met.
You made my day, you gave me strength, you gave me spirit.
You light up my life, you bring sunshine in my heart, you coloured my mind.
I'm glad to have you in my life. You're one of the best thing Allah gave to me. Alhamdulilah..

But, you take advantage on me. You treat me like a toys, like stupid person, like a girl who will doesnt know what is sad, like a girl who doesnt know what is hurt, like a girl who doesnt understand what is the meaning of being broken hearted, frustated, and hurting. You made me like that and my expression is you are totally wrong baby. I do admit, when I still fourteen, I still being like a kids even toward you. But you should understand. Fourteen years old girl, a girl who still had a long journey to through. Might I chance my language? Easy for me to talk and express everything...Lewls. Okay, memang dulu masa first time aku kenal kau, aku silap. Aku yg bukak punca. Tapi perlu ke benda tu berlarutan sampai kali ke 5 kau datang balik kat aku? Bodohlah kalau aku accept. Tapi hati aku, nobody knew. Aku seorang je yang tahu apa aku rasa. Kau masa tu bukan kisah pun kan sayang...Ok so now what? Aku pun tak tahu sebab kita cuma text dan text. And just now you texted me. Unfortunatelly, I'm out of credit. Okay, I miss you biy. Tahu rindu? Taktahu..Okay tak salahkan aku rindu kau as kawan? Anyway kawan, memang aku pernah tutup pintu hati sebab termakan dengan permainan kau. Sangat sakit..perit..pedih...Meluat. Tapi aku redha bila kau buat aku macam tu. Sebab aku percaya, Allah tahu yg terbaik. Aku tak tahu kenapa kita ni always tenggelam timbul, sekejap ada sekejap hilang. Mungkin ditakdirkan begitukan? Allahu..Kawan, aku tak pernah mintak banyak dari kau. Aku just nak kalau betul kau sayang, jaga betul betul. Kalau betul kau anggap pencarian, tinggalkan. Tak baik mainkan perasaan orang awak :) Dear you, I bet that yknow that I still love you and perhaps I could accept you back. But I dont expect for it. For me, if written that you are for me, let Allah closed us. If not, I rather to stay away for you. I don't want to get hurt anymore. I don't want to live in sadness again, perhaps 2 3 4 times more. But in the same time, I could not stop loving you even as a.............................Friends.

Assalamualaikum.